Want to end it all
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I was caught on Saturday night. First time I’ve ever done it first time I’ve ever done anurhint wrong I don’t know why I did it what I was thinking I look back and it’s like it wasn’t me. Had a few drinks after work someone kept topping me up thought I was ok got in the car then suddenly didn’t feel ok but by then was in the car, I clipped a roundabout close to home and some woman stopped me and called police. Spent night in cell worst night of my life. Blew 103 and I have never felt so low in my life I feel sick I can’t stop shaking I can’t eat I can’t sleep. I want to kill myswlf so badly but I have two children and I can’t for them I have been cutting my arms to try and get rid of the pain I feel inside. I am so scared. And so scared of being named and shamed I run my own business and this will destroy me. If I am in paper I will have to kill myself and I will miss my girls so much but I will have to I can’t go on. Please someone help me not feel like this I don’t know what to do