Nick Trafalgar
New Member
Good morning - I found this forum yesterday we all have a story and this is mine for anyone who's interested and I also would like to try and help anyone who isn't feeling great at the moment - I was stopped by the police on sunday 1st November - I was over the limit I blew 103 at the police station - I was in a cell from 5pm sunday until 11am monday 2nd November - didn't want food but accepted coffee - my court date is on the 4th December - I'm guilty no question - I've been in a not very good place recently since my partner died of leukaemia about a year ago....Dad died when I was 3 years old he shot himself and my mum remarried a very bad man.. divorced him mum died when I was 10 - was adopted at 10 years old - joined Army at 16 and saw my friend Sav killed in North Belfast shot by IRA terrorists I was fine (ish) until my partner was snatched away from me with her cancer that came on very suddenly and it was 2 weeks from becoming very poorly to passing away - a very very aggressive form of leukaemia - I'd been drinking too much since she died and stupidly drove to see a friend on the day I was caught - I do not need or want sympathy - I'm explaining this so folks know they're not on their own and many people have had a rough time of things in their lives - I felt bloody awful and completely ashamed upon my release from the cell on the monday morning ..........However I've now accepted I will face what I have to face on the 4th December and I will be polite and show my genuine remorse in court and prepare a statement to try my best to keep my punishment as low as I possibly can - I can't afford a solicitor - I couldn't care less what other people think about me - so am not worried about being in the newspaper - 'let he or she who is without sin cast the first stone' and no I'm not religious - I'm now resigned to the fact I will lose my license on the 4th December probably for about 24 months and I will have to undertake community service - and so it is - there's nothing I can do now - I'm being positive though and I hope anyone who's in this situation or similar can find that positivity too - find strength from within because it really IS there if you seek it you just have to dig deep enough and think about what you DO still have ....friends, family maybe and hopefully your health - I'm going to be cycling my arse everywhere after my court date and I WILL lose my job without any doubt as I do home delivery driving for a big supermarket chain - job gone - I'm reading a book by Ant Middleton the bloke from SAS who dares wins on channel 4 - It's called 'Zero Negativity' and its excellent and the lessons are for both Men & Women - I've started running again and feel better for it - I listen to what I call my 'power songs' every morning to get the day going everyone will have their own 'power songs' mine are 'don't look back' by Boston 'Warriors & 'Shine' by Aswad amongst others - Do something positive to start your day everyday and learn not to give a damn about what other people say or think - take your punishment and get through it and find a way to manage without driving - I'm running and cycling and I'll be slim and fit because of it which is a positive - train yourself to only think positively and turn any negative into a positive there may not seem much to be positive about but there IS even if it's only a small thing - anyone CAN change the road they're on - start it today - I'm off out for a run now in the rain - have a good day everyone and hope I can help anyone if they need some help - I will be happy to do so if I possibly can - turn that frown upside down