Parrish92
New Member
Hi ,
Bit of a weird situation I’m in .
In August 2019 I was arrested and put into custody for a drink driving offense.
I have only just had a letter through telling me I need to go to court on the 23rd of jan !
The past few months leading up to August I became severely depressed with marital problems and self worth . I attempted self harm and suicide ending up in A & E Numerous times . While this was all going on I fell into the wrong crowd and turned to drink and drug use . I was in such a dark place . On the night I was arrested - I had had a couple of drinks out at this persons house , went home and got into an argument with my other half who called me an unfit mum and some other things which broke me . I decided that was in and got into my car and drove off , I decided to go to a remote place intending to crash into a tree to end it all . My mind was racing about what to do on the way there and I thought maybe I can be saved , I wanted to call the crises line but didn’t have the number so just called 999 . When I pulled up I started guzzling from a bottle of white wine I had in the car .They told me to wait at the place In which they took a while to get to me , I was hysterical . Expecting an ambulance or a mental health team to turn up , the police turned up and asked me what i was doing - I burst into tears saying I wanted to die . They breathalysed me there and then and i was over the limit (can’t remember how much by) and instantly caustioned and arrested me . From getting out the car and into the police car I managed to take a number of pills I had in my car trying to OD to carry on the attempt to end it . From doing this they decided to take me to hospital - we were there hours , they did my obs and then decided to take some bloods to send off for investigation .
I was then put into a cell over night - it was the worst thing ever, I felt like a criminal being punished for being depressed. I had no sleep and they only offered me 1 drink. The next day my mum got the call to come assist me with interview at the station (in the meantime she has reported me missing) . I also missed work the next day and they wondered where I was . I cannot remember entirely what I said in interview but I know I was tired sleep deprived dehydrated and not mentally there . I left the station pending further investigation.
This brings me to the now , since then I have seen a physcholgist , has numerous doctors appointments , been to turning point , cut off from the wrong crowds , worked on my self esteem and relationships , I’m doing really well in my job within the NHS and I’m 20 weeks pregnant . I look back and think what the hell was i doing . I cannot bare to think about losing my license , I live in a country village where transport is poor , my job relies on this and with a newborn and young child it will be so hard to get anywhere . I am
Also dreading I will be trapped in my own home and mental health might come back to haunt me .
I have a solicitor at the moment requesting all the police evidence to see if
I should plead guilty or not guilty .
I feel like such an idiot as put myself in this mess calling 999 on myself :/ .
what are your thoughts on this and what do you think the sentence would be if I have to plead guilty ? (I don’t believe there is evidence I was
Over the limit while driving to the remote spot car park as carried on drinking when I was pulled up) police found me stationary with engine off but keys in .
sorry for such a long post .
thank you for reading .
Bit of a weird situation I’m in .
In August 2019 I was arrested and put into custody for a drink driving offense.
I have only just had a letter through telling me I need to go to court on the 23rd of jan !
The past few months leading up to August I became severely depressed with marital problems and self worth . I attempted self harm and suicide ending up in A & E Numerous times . While this was all going on I fell into the wrong crowd and turned to drink and drug use . I was in such a dark place . On the night I was arrested - I had had a couple of drinks out at this persons house , went home and got into an argument with my other half who called me an unfit mum and some other things which broke me . I decided that was in and got into my car and drove off , I decided to go to a remote place intending to crash into a tree to end it all . My mind was racing about what to do on the way there and I thought maybe I can be saved , I wanted to call the crises line but didn’t have the number so just called 999 . When I pulled up I started guzzling from a bottle of white wine I had in the car .They told me to wait at the place In which they took a while to get to me , I was hysterical . Expecting an ambulance or a mental health team to turn up , the police turned up and asked me what i was doing - I burst into tears saying I wanted to die . They breathalysed me there and then and i was over the limit (can’t remember how much by) and instantly caustioned and arrested me . From getting out the car and into the police car I managed to take a number of pills I had in my car trying to OD to carry on the attempt to end it . From doing this they decided to take me to hospital - we were there hours , they did my obs and then decided to take some bloods to send off for investigation .
I was then put into a cell over night - it was the worst thing ever, I felt like a criminal being punished for being depressed. I had no sleep and they only offered me 1 drink. The next day my mum got the call to come assist me with interview at the station (in the meantime she has reported me missing) . I also missed work the next day and they wondered where I was . I cannot remember entirely what I said in interview but I know I was tired sleep deprived dehydrated and not mentally there . I left the station pending further investigation.
This brings me to the now , since then I have seen a physcholgist , has numerous doctors appointments , been to turning point , cut off from the wrong crowds , worked on my self esteem and relationships , I’m doing really well in my job within the NHS and I’m 20 weeks pregnant . I look back and think what the hell was i doing . I cannot bare to think about losing my license , I live in a country village where transport is poor , my job relies on this and with a newborn and young child it will be so hard to get anywhere . I am
Also dreading I will be trapped in my own home and mental health might come back to haunt me .
I have a solicitor at the moment requesting all the police evidence to see if
I should plead guilty or not guilty .
I feel like such an idiot as put myself in this mess calling 999 on myself :/ .
what are your thoughts on this and what do you think the sentence would be if I have to plead guilty ? (I don’t believe there is evidence I was
Over the limit while driving to the remote spot car park as carried on drinking when I was pulled up) police found me stationary with engine off but keys in .
sorry for such a long post .
thank you for reading .
