blanket
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I lived with my mother briefly when I was 23. One night my sister came round to visit her and we had a huge row. I had already drank a bottle of wine and a beer when I decided to leave the house. We lived in a small town, it was midnight on a weekday so the only creature which stirred was perhaps a cat or two. I jumped on my 125cc motorcycle and rode down to the shore. I knew I had a drink in me and it would be serious if I were to be stopped so I made sure speeding wouldn't culminate in an 18-month ban for drink driving. I rode 20mph along the road, then 10mph along the cobbled street where the shops are, a journey which took around 5-8 minutes. I parked up and sat on the beech for 20 minutes or so. I returned to my bike to head back home. The moment I pulled away, the blue lights stopped me. "Have you been drinking". I answered in the affirmative. My dad's a cop and have grown up always to respect the police. They arrested me, I was thrown in a cell until the following morning.
Fast forward to the day of my trial and I was in the lobby of the courtroom reading over the police statement. On the night I was arrested my sister had called the police and given a description of me and my bike and where I was likely to be. My provisional driver's licence was disqualified for 14 months and I was fined £560. I work in hospitality, drinking in excess in very commonplace. I'm a bartender living on peanuts so I couldn't afford the fine, I still haven't paid. The ban ended on 20th August, last month. I spent £90 to re-apply for my licence and a further £98.50 to take their medical.
I haven't curbed my drinking since then, I'm still a bartender. I'm worried that a small mistake made over a year ago will cost me my life. You see, my motorcycle was my life, I had it for only 10 months before I lost it. Losing it meant that I lost access to a girl I was seeing up north, with whom I had fallen in love; public transport doesn't go near there. I had to cut her off. During the time I had the bike, I finally found my calling in life and had undergone training to become a climbing instructor. Finally, something which I actually loved and could get me away from the late-night bar work I was doing. Something to start living a more healthy and fulfilled lifestyle too. I lost job prospects, I lost access to the climbing arena. In short, I lost everything. Depression, from which I have suffered for my whole adult life, began to define who I was. For the past 14 months, losing the only thing which finally brought me happiness has destroyed me. I've lost friends and intimate relationships. I've lost jobs and my motivation for anything has been crippled.
I decided to end my life through asphyxiation. I bought a cylinder of helium and it's been in the wardrobe for months. Support from my dad is the only thing that has kept me going. "Only another 10 months now, you've done 4", "You're over half way now, you'll have your bike in no time", "Last month, son, and you can start climbing again, I'll even pay for your bike to be serviced since it's been in storage for so long".
It's been 15 months and 4 days, today. I still don't have my licence. I went for my medical on 13th August and I just need to wait another couple of weeks or so. So now I get to the point of my story, I might fail my medical. We all know how strict these things are, what if my blood test says I drink too much? I won't piss away another year or so of my twenties. I won't waste any more of my life living with suicidal depression, back to square 1 after only tasting happiness for 10 months. It's either now or never. I'm not going to survive if my freedom is refused. I can't live like this.
They were right when they said drink driving destroys lives. Well, I guess I'll update you when the verdict is made.
Cheers
Fast forward to the day of my trial and I was in the lobby of the courtroom reading over the police statement. On the night I was arrested my sister had called the police and given a description of me and my bike and where I was likely to be. My provisional driver's licence was disqualified for 14 months and I was fined £560. I work in hospitality, drinking in excess in very commonplace. I'm a bartender living on peanuts so I couldn't afford the fine, I still haven't paid. The ban ended on 20th August, last month. I spent £90 to re-apply for my licence and a further £98.50 to take their medical.
I haven't curbed my drinking since then, I'm still a bartender. I'm worried that a small mistake made over a year ago will cost me my life. You see, my motorcycle was my life, I had it for only 10 months before I lost it. Losing it meant that I lost access to a girl I was seeing up north, with whom I had fallen in love; public transport doesn't go near there. I had to cut her off. During the time I had the bike, I finally found my calling in life and had undergone training to become a climbing instructor. Finally, something which I actually loved and could get me away from the late-night bar work I was doing. Something to start living a more healthy and fulfilled lifestyle too. I lost job prospects, I lost access to the climbing arena. In short, I lost everything. Depression, from which I have suffered for my whole adult life, began to define who I was. For the past 14 months, losing the only thing which finally brought me happiness has destroyed me. I've lost friends and intimate relationships. I've lost jobs and my motivation for anything has been crippled.
I decided to end my life through asphyxiation. I bought a cylinder of helium and it's been in the wardrobe for months. Support from my dad is the only thing that has kept me going. "Only another 10 months now, you've done 4", "You're over half way now, you'll have your bike in no time", "Last month, son, and you can start climbing again, I'll even pay for your bike to be serviced since it's been in storage for so long".
It's been 15 months and 4 days, today. I still don't have my licence. I went for my medical on 13th August and I just need to wait another couple of weeks or so. So now I get to the point of my story, I might fail my medical. We all know how strict these things are, what if my blood test says I drink too much? I won't piss away another year or so of my twenties. I won't waste any more of my life living with suicidal depression, back to square 1 after only tasting happiness for 10 months. It's either now or never. I'm not going to survive if my freedom is refused. I can't live like this.
They were right when they said drink driving destroys lives. Well, I guess I'll update you when the verdict is made.
Cheers