Smuttyangel
Member
Hi,
I’m 48, widow to 3 children. Thursday night I’d just got my daughter’s birthday cake after being out all day getting as much as I could for gifts. I’m registered disabled & receiving enhanced PIP for both mobility & daily living components. Mental health not great & have degenerative disk disease, rheumatoid arthritis & fibromyalgia. Spine fusion 2014. Failed. On 50mcg fentanyl patches, gabapentine, naproxen, oxybutnin hydrochloride, Escitalopram, metazapine & melotonin for sleeping.
a supposed friend asked me to get her some beers before went home. Because I can’t say no I did. Then she ordered vodka via local ‘drinks drop’ - I’d just discovered my oldest child (26)is in serious trouble looking at prison time & my daughterwas constantly messaging asking when I’d be home. Confided & broke down to said friend & I accepted a drink of beer plus ‘some’ vodka. No idea howmuchI had? Next thing I know I’ve hit lampost & comeround to air bag inmy face. No injuries apart from forearm abrasions. No seatbelt bruise etc. daughter’s birthday cake intact on passenger seat.
apparently I blew 72 on scene around 1.37am.
Tried at least 5-6 times to breathe into breathalyzer at station but couldn’t manage. Nurse came out to take my blood at 4.38am then released without charge & not on bail.
im absolutely terrified. I’d JUST won a 2 year battle with DWP for my disability & car in Dec & got Motability car Jan 4th this year.
needless to say I’m ashamed, disappointed & disgusted with myself. Any advice or support would be gratefully received. I’ve got atm clean license since 2000.
I’m 48, widow to 3 children. Thursday night I’d just got my daughter’s birthday cake after being out all day getting as much as I could for gifts. I’m registered disabled & receiving enhanced PIP for both mobility & daily living components. Mental health not great & have degenerative disk disease, rheumatoid arthritis & fibromyalgia. Spine fusion 2014. Failed. On 50mcg fentanyl patches, gabapentine, naproxen, oxybutnin hydrochloride, Escitalopram, metazapine & melotonin for sleeping.
a supposed friend asked me to get her some beers before went home. Because I can’t say no I did. Then she ordered vodka via local ‘drinks drop’ - I’d just discovered my oldest child (26)is in serious trouble looking at prison time & my daughterwas constantly messaging asking when I’d be home. Confided & broke down to said friend & I accepted a drink of beer plus ‘some’ vodka. No idea howmuchI had? Next thing I know I’ve hit lampost & comeround to air bag inmy face. No injuries apart from forearm abrasions. No seatbelt bruise etc. daughter’s birthday cake intact on passenger seat.
apparently I blew 72 on scene around 1.37am.
Tried at least 5-6 times to breathe into breathalyzer at station but couldn’t manage. Nurse came out to take my blood at 4.38am then released without charge & not on bail.
im absolutely terrified. I’d JUST won a 2 year battle with DWP for my disability & car in Dec & got Motability car Jan 4th this year.
needless to say I’m ashamed, disappointed & disgusted with myself. Any advice or support would be gratefully received. I’ve got atm clean license since 2000.