Stupid2015
Member
Hello All,
As you can imagine i'm here as i have been so incredibly stupid, i cannot believe I've got myself in such a situation, i'm so ashamed and so sorry for what i did! I can't sleep, i can't eat, i'm full of guilt and even simple tasks like washing seem to take so much effort, I've never felt so low and i have no one to blame but myself. One thing i have found which has helped is reading the posts within this forum and so i thought i would post my story so far to share with you all, i hope someone out there may be able to help with practical advice/guidance?
The background is essentially that after going through a number of personal changes (Relationship, Job loss) I started to use Alcohol to self medicate after a prescription from the doctor simply didn't work. Alcohol had simply taken over my life to a point where it was out of control and then one night (6th Jan) it all came crashing down around me.
After drinking to excess on my own (which is bad enough) for some reason, which i cannot explain, i decided to drive a short distance home (around 1.5miles) and once parked up at home i have been arrested by the Police. Unfortunately at this point my story gets worse. All i can really say is that the shock of the Police turning up and my state at the time has caused me to act irrationally and i'm so very sorry for it.
When asked to take a roadside breath test i have said i will take one but only at the station (why i though it was optional i can't tell you). I have been arrested, forcibly, and taken to the station. My custody record states that i refused to provide a sample but i do remember trying my best both at a roadside test (at the station) and then the machine. My Custody Record states that the Police did gain one partial reading ... a whopping 118!
I'm so scared, i know I've done so very wrong and the only thing i can focus on is that this could be so much worse, thank god i didn't hit anything or anyone.
I am only facing 1 charge according to my charge sheet (Failure to Supply) but i'm so scared that i will go to prison for this. I'm absolutely petrified in fact! Is there anyone out there that can provide me with some advice/guidance on this please? I have an initial meeting with my solicitor next week and my court date is 17th Feb (I'm surprised by the length between arrest and court date). Although i'm yet to receive legal advice i'm so racked with guilt all i can think about is pleading guilty and begging the court for mercy in their sentencing, I've done wrong and deserve to be punished but i can't help but think that this wouldn't have happened if i had managed to find a new job by now and this is obviously going to make that so much harder now. One more ray of hope is that i haven't touched a drop of booze since the event and i have no intention of, when in the cell there was a number painted on the wall and i asked for a referral to an alcohol support charity which i've got an appointment for.
I have never had a criminal conviction of any kind and i'm sure a number of people will provide me with character references which share this this act is an isolated act of stupidity at the lowest point of my life to date.
I really would appreciate anything you wish to share in response?
Thank you for taking the time to read my story to date.
As you can imagine i'm here as i have been so incredibly stupid, i cannot believe I've got myself in such a situation, i'm so ashamed and so sorry for what i did! I can't sleep, i can't eat, i'm full of guilt and even simple tasks like washing seem to take so much effort, I've never felt so low and i have no one to blame but myself. One thing i have found which has helped is reading the posts within this forum and so i thought i would post my story so far to share with you all, i hope someone out there may be able to help with practical advice/guidance?
The background is essentially that after going through a number of personal changes (Relationship, Job loss) I started to use Alcohol to self medicate after a prescription from the doctor simply didn't work. Alcohol had simply taken over my life to a point where it was out of control and then one night (6th Jan) it all came crashing down around me.
After drinking to excess on my own (which is bad enough) for some reason, which i cannot explain, i decided to drive a short distance home (around 1.5miles) and once parked up at home i have been arrested by the Police. Unfortunately at this point my story gets worse. All i can really say is that the shock of the Police turning up and my state at the time has caused me to act irrationally and i'm so very sorry for it.
When asked to take a roadside breath test i have said i will take one but only at the station (why i though it was optional i can't tell you). I have been arrested, forcibly, and taken to the station. My custody record states that i refused to provide a sample but i do remember trying my best both at a roadside test (at the station) and then the machine. My Custody Record states that the Police did gain one partial reading ... a whopping 118!
I'm so scared, i know I've done so very wrong and the only thing i can focus on is that this could be so much worse, thank god i didn't hit anything or anyone.
I am only facing 1 charge according to my charge sheet (Failure to Supply) but i'm so scared that i will go to prison for this. I'm absolutely petrified in fact! Is there anyone out there that can provide me with some advice/guidance on this please? I have an initial meeting with my solicitor next week and my court date is 17th Feb (I'm surprised by the length between arrest and court date). Although i'm yet to receive legal advice i'm so racked with guilt all i can think about is pleading guilty and begging the court for mercy in their sentencing, I've done wrong and deserve to be punished but i can't help but think that this wouldn't have happened if i had managed to find a new job by now and this is obviously going to make that so much harder now. One more ray of hope is that i haven't touched a drop of booze since the event and i have no intention of, when in the cell there was a number painted on the wall and i asked for a referral to an alcohol support charity which i've got an appointment for.
I have never had a criminal conviction of any kind and i'm sure a number of people will provide me with character references which share this this act is an isolated act of stupidity at the lowest point of my life to date.
I really would appreciate anything you wish to share in response?
Thank you for taking the time to read my story to date.