stupidgirl
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I received a DR10 in May 2012. I blew 56mg, was given 12 month ban (reduced to 9 with course) and fine of £280.00, plus court costs. I got my license back in March 2013.
I'm so ashamed to say, that here I am again Monday evening, after having 2 bottles of white wine, I drove (idiotically) and was stopped. I blew 89mg this time, and required to appear in court 14th May (in Liverpool btw). There were no accidents / injuries / damage to anything etc (same as last time).
I am utterly ashamed and so full of hatred and anger for myself right now. I am absolutely terrified that they will send me to jail this time I can't eat or sleep and feel sick with this thought. I am a full time carer for my husband and our 2 young amazing sons. Hubby had a Stroke back in Sept 2012 and he wouldn't be able to look after our boys if I went to jail, my life and family would literally fall apart. I am currently taking anti-anxiety meds (Citalopram) and when mixed with alcohol, there seems to be a 'crazy' switch inside my head, which makes me do stupid things, like this.
I am not a bad person, in fact I'm a decent, caring mum and wife and since having to come out of work, I am now studying a BSc (Hons) with The Open University. Again, if I go to jail, I'll lose out on the continuation of my course too
I understand that I now face a mandatory 3-year ban and possibly another huge fine, but I just can't go to jail, it will kill my family. I would be happy to carry out community service, as I like helping people and feel I would gain some satisfaction out of doing so.
Am I heading for jail, in reality ???
I'm so ashamed to say, that here I am again Monday evening, after having 2 bottles of white wine, I drove (idiotically) and was stopped. I blew 89mg this time, and required to appear in court 14th May (in Liverpool btw). There were no accidents / injuries / damage to anything etc (same as last time).
I am utterly ashamed and so full of hatred and anger for myself right now. I am absolutely terrified that they will send me to jail this time I can't eat or sleep and feel sick with this thought. I am a full time carer for my husband and our 2 young amazing sons. Hubby had a Stroke back in Sept 2012 and he wouldn't be able to look after our boys if I went to jail, my life and family would literally fall apart. I am currently taking anti-anxiety meds (Citalopram) and when mixed with alcohol, there seems to be a 'crazy' switch inside my head, which makes me do stupid things, like this.
I am not a bad person, in fact I'm a decent, caring mum and wife and since having to come out of work, I am now studying a BSc (Hons) with The Open University. Again, if I go to jail, I'll lose out on the continuation of my course too
I understand that I now face a mandatory 3-year ban and possibly another huge fine, but I just can't go to jail, it will kill my family. I would be happy to carry out community service, as I like helping people and feel I would gain some satisfaction out of doing so.
Am I heading for jail, in reality ???