ellen1
Member
Ok guys, i have now about 7 months to go. well its 7.5 but now i will count 7. Is anybody else counting? post here.
but the trouble is, i am now at the very low point. I am still counting but it's like I don't care any more. Of cause I'd like to have half an hour journey to work as opposed to 1.5 hour. Of cause I'd like to forget about the buses that stink and do not come in time and go through the worst route ever. But I am now not even sure about driving. I'd have to sort out the insurance and the new car. And i'd have to get used to driving again. The punishment was too much, I have already done almost a year and now 7 moths still to go. And dont give me that:its your fault. Do not judge me, cause you did same mistake. I dont need your judgement. I am just telling i am not coping very well. My depression has spiralled out of control. and i actually drink more than i did before. Of cause i'll stop before medical, and when i get my car. But at the moment i am at the lowest of my lows....
but the trouble is, i am now at the very low point. I am still counting but it's like I don't care any more. Of cause I'd like to have half an hour journey to work as opposed to 1.5 hour. Of cause I'd like to forget about the buses that stink and do not come in time and go through the worst route ever. But I am now not even sure about driving. I'd have to sort out the insurance and the new car. And i'd have to get used to driving again. The punishment was too much, I have already done almost a year and now 7 moths still to go. And dont give me that:its your fault. Do not judge me, cause you did same mistake. I dont need your judgement. I am just telling i am not coping very well. My depression has spiralled out of control. and i actually drink more than i did before. Of cause i'll stop before medical, and when i get my car. But at the moment i am at the lowest of my lows....